stories from germany
inside - a nervous breakdown I had a week ago and a depression a year ago, including the intensive wish of suicid.
outside - Winter. We had a tremendous cold and snowy weather for weeks. It started (for me) on Chrismas Eve with the first snow this year. Few days later we went on a ice-scating-trip on a frozen river. We did about 16 to 18 km on a foggy, grey day. Land was silent and peaceful and myserious and I felt like beeing the only person in an outerspace world. I mostly liked the gray and dark days. Muhamed Ali when he lighed the Olympic Fire in Atlanta.
future - I don't think there will be much life - or something that's worth telling it so. Maybe there won't be any catastrophe (?), but I belive life has to end by itself. It's a question of evolultion.

inga
kaiserslautern, germany - Tuesday, January 21, 1997 at 16:34:11 (GMT)


inside - i wrote/you wrote Words, Sampled Texts, Recorded Talk, E-Mails, Thesaurus, Grammar, ... 2 S 2.877 Zeichen i wrote: Mega! you wrote: Your Name is Mega? i wrote: White! Its white! you wrote: Aha!
outside - i wrote: A kind of manifesto or a dream: Nothing is real, oh cyberspace" oh Internet", Internet forever! And ever and ever... It is preferable to avoid beginning a sentence with And. It will last forever until were dead, til the human race is dead and gone. So the game will be over then. GAME OVER! No Game without player. tearfully sentimental All those machines, the machinery will survive, but without a sense. But - - It will be o.k.! A nightmare? Is it a Causal Error? It does not seem to be a complete sentence. No! It is real. It is Wirklichkeit. It will be reality. One thing is obvious: the future will end, because when there is nobody/no man anymore the consciousness of man comes to an end (which end?). Who can read the books? watch the pics? interpret the data?. No Sense without mind. And where is the mind now (no question-mark) Give me your piece of mind. you wrote: >Internet forever!< But what does this statement mean? Its a wish. W hat is man, what is a person? (persona) What is man-kind? You say: where we are going to? Where do we come from? I have no answers, just questions? You say, you say, you say. you wrote, you wrote, you wrote you wrote you wr i wrote: e-Mail, E-Mail, Email, Emaille, enamel, Email, eeeeh a male!, E-Male, E-Female so what? 8-) gruesse you wrote: i wrote i wrote: yes! you wrote: it. IT (intelligence) or should i write mentality i wrote: it >> >> >>
future - i wrote: Dont stop writing. The IT-discussion is in fact a big gossip. Now everyone wants to join in the Media Hype, the Internet-Thing. Even VR (virus riddle) is meta. What should be discussed? I think we must thingk about it. What does it mean to thingk? you wrote: Thing-k!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! .............................IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIiiiiiiiii iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiithin_k i wrote: Its not a trick, its a lie. But as we all now, lies are the other side of truth. Yes, we know better now! you wrote: PARTICIPATE Virtual, inter and active. To gather together. Get it into a form. make it! See the world and start to create. You know its like peep" (watch out controllers!) Fuck , O.K. i write, watch out for controllers, inspectors, gurus, nerds i wrote: Anonymize me! Look @ me! I AM an individual(s). I want to see all those people from the countries. Its transglobal already! And the rhizome grows. An the commerce grows, and the revolution grows. So it is evolution. No, it comes out of the military and it will go back to the military via capitalism. Internetism, Neo-Internetism, surfing the net, producing the net. The complexity of this is too complex. Send me the best model you can find. you wrote: file not found i wrote: Download me! Give me Response! HTMLize me! Net me! you wrote: And the body? Turing universal Visa card i wrote: The number is 0000 0000 0000 0000. Matze Schmidt, schwarze@hrz.uni-kassel.de. feedback you wrote: Contact me! In 1500 languages! Connect or die! Dont worry! Its allright. All is right. *+~#=! i wrote: Its an error you wrote: Was hei_t eigentlich Netz auf Franzoesisch? filet i wrote: no you wrote: Its a matter of technique i wrote: It is. Subscribe or not!

Matze Schmidt <schwarze@hrz.uni-kassel.de>
Kassel, Deutschland - Monday, January 20, 1997 at 11:29:49 (GMT)


inside - EMAF
outside - Osnabrück
future - September 1996

Menzi <Hi, I have found your DAT-Tapes!!! You can conect me in the Haus der Jugend Osnabrück. Bye Menzi:)>
Osnabrück, Germany - Sunday, October 20, 1996 at 22:35:05 (BST)


inside - I started seeing my boyfriend Nick about three months ago. I never loved a man so much before -- probably except my father... Everything, well at least the background for everything, seems different now - I´m so happy and wish this will never end!
outside - maybe something about school, like our newspaper an dall the work on it.. or maybe that video I saw of an artist from Croatia who described her way of life during the war, and in connecton to that all the news in the papers.. i dunno
future - I know that the internet will be nothing like today -- way faster, more complex, all that.. I hope that the development of our social life doesnt continue the way it´s developping right now-- everything getting so unpersonal and selfish.. i got no clue on technical stuff, but i know it will change a lot too, and our environment might either recover if it´s given the chance to do so, or it will break down if not. it´s up to us.

sarah zierul <101776.1774@compuserve.com>
leichlingen, germany - Thursday, September 26, 1996 at 18:44:21 (BST)


inside - Very intimate question. On which level ? Sex with my boyfriend got more satisfying since we found an outer enemy: jobs and work ! Together with this aspect came the extrem consciousness of the personal freedom I got up to now and that sticks in my flesh and intrabraincom. Hate beeing controlled and forced to something hate unflexibility. Flexible creative thinking is a great treasure. And beeing able to do so is a great gift (of whom ? society and nature...oneself ?)
outside - How recent ? How nearby ? Constant envent nearby: the constantly changing habitat around me: Berlin. Tranforming itself into a slick, dominant business center. Shops and the lifes behind (hopefull people) are closing down each week a new one in one street. More far away and longer ago: the new european war. You know which: this south-eastern event that lasted so long and now is in the state of beeing integrated into the long list of unsolved civilisational-psychic problems.
future - more technified - I am an optimist - so I think people could have managed to comunicate better between technics and the-rest-of-human-necesities-and-desires. If so it should be comfortable and intellectually fullfilling to live then - still there will be created new questions and problems to solve. Allways: you only can find a new task if you got rid of the last one.

Kerstin Weiberg <kweiberg@is.in-berlin.de>
Berlin, germany - Wednesday, September 04, 1996 at 14:55:19 (BST)
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